dahil valentine's ngayon...

Let me be senti and post a song for B. Hehe. =)

Unbelievable
Craig David

Always said I would know where to find love
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough
But sometimes I just felt I could give up
But you came and you changed my whole world now
I'm somewhere I've never been before
Now I see
What love means

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
It's something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be

In my heart in my head it's so clear now
hold my hand you've got nothin' to fear now
I was lost and you've rescued me somehow
I'm alive I'm in love you complete me
And I've never been here before
Now I see
What love means

When I think of what I have
And this chance I nearly lost
I can't help but break down and cry

Now I see
What love means

B!

Mahal kita
I love you
Nihigugma ka na ko
Namumutan ta ka
Wo ai ni
Je t'aime
Ich liebe dich
Kimi o ai shiteru
Gwa ai lee
Te amo

Happy Valentine's Day!

i want blip blip blip

After B happened, I never really wanted something as much as I want this--something that, for certain reasons, I cannot say here.

I'll just let the Universe unfold as it should.

But I'm praying. And wishing. And hoping.

hung over

(Details may vary from actual events. Writer was intoxicated during the event, which may have affected her memory.)

Last Sunday, I woke up with the worst hang over I've had in years.

Saturday night was inuman/videoke night with highschool friends Bjorn, Noralyn, Pia, Tatan and Drea. I asked them to have dinner at the house so I cooked spicy (which turned out to be not spicy at all) fried chicken, pork adobo and chopsuey. They all loved the food, thank God! I haven't cooked in quite a while. Mom's improved her cooking skills and I let her do the task even on weekends.

Anyway, after dinner with the girls, we watched Iron Chef while waiting for Bjorn. He arrived around 8:30pm. We fed him (haha, what a term) and asked him to drive us to 7/11. He volunteered to buy Cuervo but the 7/11 branch he went to didn't have it. We insisted on checking out to the branch along the highway.

The highway branch didn't have Cuervo too so we decided to just mix vodka and Cali Shandy. It was the first time I heard of such concoction but Pia said it was alright so I believed her. We bought a bottle of vodka (80 proof), a few cans of Cali and a couple cans of beer.

When we got home we wasted no time. Pia prepared the toma while we gathered on the sofa to start the videoke session. Turns out, Bjorn and Noralyn are such mic and songlist hogs. =)

After a while Pia joined us with a pitcher of mixed vodka and Cali. It looked like Nestea Iced Tea that you'd think it's harmless. I was the tanggero so I had the honor of drinking the first glass. It tasted harmless too. Sarap. The liquid slid off smoothly down my throat. Walang kasabit-sabit unlike gin or tequila na super init.

After we consumed the first pitcher, we were all feeling hot. I decided to take a break and went to the terrace to get some fresh air and to smoke. We resumed a couple of minutes after.

We were able to finish up the second pitcher without doing anything crazy. I even thought na bumaba na tama ko. Siguro sila rin since we asked semi-intoxicated Bjorn to buy another bottle of vodka. He did.

If the first pitcher made us hot, the third one made us speak in tongues. I don't know how it started but we all began speaking coño english. Like you know, you know? Hehe.

After while we began dancing and our singing abilities (if we had them in the first place) became impaired. I couldn't read the lyrics from the TV and couldn't carry a proper tune. I was hilo. I couldn't get my butt off the floor that Bjorn had to pull me up.

I was officially drunk by then. I don't even know where I got the strength to bring myself to the restroom and throw-up (neatly) on the bowl. I'm proud that even if I was not assisted by anyone I managed to not spill anything on the floor. Hehe.

We were all done by the fourth pitcher that we were not able to drink all of it. After I threw up I fell asleep on the couch and I didn't notice when Tatan and Drea asked Bjorn to take them home.

I woke up 7am the next day feeling sluggish. Nakakaiyak ang sakit ng ulo! Grabe!

But I'm not swearing off alcohol, inuman sessions and videoke nights with friends. These are the stuff my life, at present, is made of and I'm willing to live with the consequences.

Sa uulitin. =)

resolutions (?) for 1H 2006

I've divided my resolutions into two groups. Group A consists of resolutions that are not so fun but are important if I want to survive the next couple of years. The main objective of this set is to make Kat a better, more responsible adult, with a tremendous amount of self-control, determination and will.

Group B is more of a list of the things I want to do in the first half of the year. I designed this set to make me a better, well-rounded person--plus the fun!

Group A
1. Cut down or eliminate rice intake. I've gained what I lost a few months back and I need to lose it again in time for the summer. My tummy's beginning to bulge again and my thighs and arms...nevermind. I'll spare you the gory details. Hihi.

I know, I know. I should be dieting and exercising at the same time. But as you all know by now I'm a lazy girl and I can't and do not have any motivation to enroll in gym classes. Besides, I'm in no condition to engage in any rigorous physical activity whatsoever. See resolution number 2.

2. Cut down or eliminate cigarette consumption. I've suffered from asthmatic bronchitis recently and my refusal to stop smoking made it worse. I think I was coughing for a month. Not good.

Besides, nicotine affects a woman's fertility, not that I have plans of bearing a child soon. But according to Cosmopolitan, the sooner you cut back, the better your chances of reversing the effects of the chemical. So, there.

3. Stop swiping my credit cards. I've turned into a shopaholic since I implemented a minor wardrobe overhaul. Since I cannot pay more than the minimum amount due per month, I have to stop spending so my debt won't accumulate. I've done it once, I can do it again. Goal: zero debt before my birthday.

4. Start saving. I've begun setting aside a certain amount of money per payday so I can open a savings account. Hopefully, I'd be able to pool a decent amount of money for...well...the future, whatever that is.

5. Figure out the career path I want to take. Do I want to be a copy writer/editor? A teacher? A counselor? A doctor?

Group B
1. Travel. Thankfully, the factory has scheduled me for a trip somewhere in Asia. This will be in April and although I'm anxious about travelling alone to that place where rarely anyone speaks English, I'm excited too.

However, aside from that business trip, I hope I'll be able to go to Guimaras or Boracay in the summer. If not, any island in the Philippines will do. I just want to see a new place.

2. Read more. I've started the year right by reading Memoirs of a Geisha. I can say it's the perfect material for someone who wants to get back on the reading track. Ang ganda niya, promise! I've also begun reading The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time, which my sister gave me two Christmases ago. What a shame! Ngayon ko lang binuklat!

Other books in my reading list are, in no particular order:
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Virgin Suicides
Middlesex
Come Together
Come Again
Atonement
American Gods
By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

And many others. They're just all there, gathering dust on the shelf, waiting for me to take notice of them. Don't worry dear books, I will soon devour each of you. =)

3. Play the guitar more and learn to tune the strings. I need to learn to tune or else I won't be able to play anything. I feel sorry for my guitar. He's just standing there at the corner of my dormroom. I think he's beginning to rot. I need to take him out soon.

4. Ensure that time spent with family, friends and boyfriend is of good quality. 'Nuff said.

5. Pray more. Must get back in touch with my spriritual side.