repost

I'm reposting this entry from March 7:

relationship insight

No one can really be sure of how a relationship will turn out. A couple can be so together and giddy with happiness one second and somber and separated the next.

The uncertainty of it is just scary and sometimes you wish you could control everything.

But then you couldn't. And shouldn't.

You just have to do your best.

******

Let's do our best B.

I love you.

bad trip, good trip

I filed my travel request to the company's "travel department" last January 25 but as of this time, I haven't received my Chinese visa yet, my tickets nor details of where I'll be staying. And I'm set to leave on April 4. Pati per diem allowance ko wala pa. Baka naman gusto pa nila akong papuntahin sa office sa day ng trip ko? L*che.

Haha, nagjojoke ka ba Mama? Ano pa bang ginagawa mo bukod sa pagbibilang ng crumps sa mga workstations ng bawat isang employee dito at magsend ng e-mail sa lahat na mali naman ang grammar?

I don't want to be mean pero naman, sana may kahit kaunting consideration.

******

I already received the Hong Kong International Auto Parts Fair programme and makakarating ako sa Hong Kong Disneyland! May lunch ang overseas journalists sa Enchanted Garden Hotel!

Marami ring magagandang seminars/conferences na nakaline-up para sa OJs. Interesting kasi mga innovation and new technology sa automotive industry. Sana may kotse ako para mas maappreciate ko yung mga malalaman ko. =)

downtime

There's this manong in Citibank Center who everyone calls Ma'am/Sir-please-pin-your-id. The majority of the employees working in the building knows him by that moniker, which happens to be his constant reminder to everyone.

During times like this, when my hormones are taking on a life of their own and when I don't feel any zest for my job at all, I envy him. Manong please-pin-your-id seems to be doing his job with such zeal and ardor. He does it every single day for God knows how many hours. He doesn't seem to get tired of saying his famous line every friggin' minute, if needed, despite the occasional pasaway who wouldn't pin his/her id. I don't know how much he gets paid, but he doesn't seem to mind.

I wish I can do my job with such passion, regardless of the pasaway *insert nationality here* writers who couldn't follow the memos, no matter how detailed they are. I wish I can find the enthusiasm to do it everyday despite stuff I couldn't say here, unless I want to become a bum tomorrow.

Gad.

It's gonna be a long, boring, but hopefully productive week.

I hope I hear some great news soon.

******

I want my mommy's adobo. I need some comfort food.

hostaged

Dahil wala pa ako sa mood magtrabaho ever, magkekwento muna ako sa nangyari sa amin kahapon.

Meron kaming nakuhang dalawang payong na ideal for bagyo season, dalawang uber jologs na gym bag at apat na movie passes sa kahit saang SM cinema. Yehey!

Nanood kami ni B kahapon ng V for Vendetta sa posh na posh na SM North. Hehe. Yun ang malapit eh. Anyway, pagkatapos nagbayad kami ng BayanTel bill nila sa Cyberzone. Nang palabas na kami ay naharang kami ng isang makulit na babae mula sa FF.

Tinanggihan ko na kasi ayoko ng mga ganyan. Pero mapursigi ang girl at naconvince si B, na sige, umupo kami at magfill-up ng raffle ticket na hindi namin alam if may draw naman talaga. Honda Jazz ang mapapanalunan tas pinangakuan pa kami ng two pairs of SM cinema passes at payong. So pinatos na namin.

After makinig sa explanation ng maingay na babae (tawa lang ako ng tawa all throughout), dinala na niya kami dun sa office nila sa main building ng SM North. Thirty to 45 minutes lang naman daw ang orientation at wala naman daw kaming obligasyong mag-avail ng plan. So go kami. May libreng iced tea daw. Hehe. Napagkasunduan na namin ni B na walang magigive-in sa offer. Walang magaavail ng plan.

Ang daming tao sa office nila. Mga nagpauto gaya namin. Kasi makikinig ka lang naman eh. Madali lang yun.

Magkahiwalay kami ni B na ioorient, para daw mas mabilis. Kei, fine. Nauna akong tinawag. Napagkamalan pa akong misis ng magoorient sa akin na ang pangalan ay Algae (code lang yan, hehe).

So chika, chika, chika. Inexplain niya kung ano yung company nila, anong affiliates etc. Tas inexplain niya ang halaga ng pagiipon. He didn't tell me anything I didn't already know. Kung may nagawa man yung mga drama niya, yun ay yung mapafeel sa akin na dapat ko na talagang umpisahan magipon.

Siempre dumating kami sa main purpose ng pagpunta dun, ang makinig sa marketing nila ng product/service nila. Basta ang sabi, magiinitial deposit daw ako ng around P26,000 tapos magbabayad na lang daw ata ako ng around P1,000 per month for five years ata. Di ko na maalala kasi hindi naman talaga ako interested.

Sabi ko hindi ko pwede iavail yung plan kasi hindi ko maiicharge sa card ko yung 26 kiao. Nagdrama na lang ako na maxed out na yung card ko.

Pero binabaan nila yung initial deposit. Naging P5 kiao na lang ata. Tas ang kulit, itry daw namin na ipaapprove yung card. Malay ko daw di ba? Sa July pa naman daw mabibill sa akin yun.

Sabi ko ayoko kasi pano kung maapprove eh ayoko naman talaga di ba? Ang kulit nila, grabe. Dumating sa point na tatlong agent na yung nangungulit sa akin. May mga nagpapacute pang agent (as in smile at kindat-kindat effect) at nagtatanong kung may boyfriend na ako. Haler, kasama ko kaya?! Lumabas tuloy pagkasungit ko.

Tinanong ko bluntly pano sila kumikita sa scheme, tas pano kung magsara sila. Sabi ko I don't trust pre-need companies chorva. At sabi ko di nila masisisi mga tao kung di sila kumukuha ng ganyan. Mahirap na buhay ngayon. Oo, okay magipon. Pero bakit kelangan mo pa padaanin sa iba? Eh di ikaw na lang magtabi ng 1 kiao per month di ba?

Aside from being makulit, bastos pa yung agent na naassign sa akin. Aba, sabi bat daw dalawa bag ko. Una di ko getz kasi isa lang naman dala ko. Tinuro ba naman yung bilbil ko sa tiyan sabay sabi nang, bat may belt bag ka pa? The nerve! Gag* pala siya eh. Sabi ko, ang yabang mo di ka nakakatawa sabay walk-out. Tumakbo ako kay B. Hehehe.

Grabe ang pagstall nila. Sabi nila 30-45 minutes tapos naging two hours!!! Sobrang gutom na kami ni B nun. Pumasok kami 4:30 tas nakaalis kami 7pm na. Grabe! Hostage. Nagiingay na nga ako sa loob eh, sabi ko ang daya niyo, sabi niyo hanggang 45 minutes lang tas two hours na chorva, chorva. Nagmamakaawa na talaga ako na paalisin na kami. Tinakot ko nga, sabi ko lagot kayo sa akin paglabas ko dito. Bad PR! Hahaha.

Pero nagwagi pa rin kami ni B. Hindi kami nagavail ng plan pero may four movie passes kami, payong at bag. Pero di ko nirerecommended you go through it. Dapat mapasensya ka at may paninindigan. Hehehe. Ako nga sobrang tagal ko maasar pero halos magiskandalo na ako dun sa pikon. Buti na lang andun si B. May karamay ako.

Swerte pala si B kasi mabait yung agent na napunta sa kanya. Di gaya nung akin. Abrasive. Well, trabaho lang naman nila yun so di ko rin sila masisi for being makulit.

Yun. So manonood kami ni B ng movie sa weekend. For free. Hehehe. =)

time check

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Tick-tock-tick-tock.

swipe me baby...not

I paid my credit card bills today.

And a new, sparkly Red Mastercard, the credit card specifically for women, arrived.

Ha! As if I need another swipey.

Kinailangan ko na nga ng intervention ni B para lang matigil ang pagiging shopaholic ko. My cards are with him now, tucked safely in his locker.

I swear, para akong addict. I'm experiencing withdrawal symptoms. Napapadaan ako sa mall at sobrang tempted na tumingin sa shops. Ang hirap minsan iresist pero iniisip ko na I really have to implement changes sa paghandle ko ng finances ko. And I really need to save!

Major rehab ito.

weekend na naman

Salamat at weekend na.

******

Mukhang magkakasakit na naman ako. Two days nang nangangati ang ilong ko. Pag gabi, stuffed siya. Pag araw naman at andito ako sa office, runny. Hay. Gusto kong humiga na lang at matulog.

Sobrang lamig naman kasi dito sa opisina. Parang nakakatuyo ng utak. Nakakamatay pa ng mood magtrabaho. Dagdag pa ang blinds na parang laging umuulan sa labas. Sana pwedeng sa beach yung office. Hehe. Di nakakabato.

Buti na lang weekend na at makakapagdefrost na ako. Kasama ko pa si B at pupunta kaming Calapan. Yihee! Hehe.

Happy weekend sa lahat!

my johari window

Please go here and let me know what you think about me. =)

the weekend in pictures, part 2

Mom and Dad's silver anniversary celeb

Mommy and Daddy celebrated their silver anniversary and birthdays (Daddy, on March 5 and Mommy on April 6) last Saturday and Sunday.

Saturday evening the family had dinner at Palmera's Garden. Maganda ang ambiance ng place pero mediocre ang food. Masarap maginuman though kasi sa kubo kayo tas may pond. May live band din na tumutugtog. Mediocre nga lang din ang nagplay nung gabing yun.

Sunday morning naman we had lunch sa Kusina Salud. Si Patis Tesoro ang may-ari ng place. Lumang bahay ang nagsilbing restaurant, as in luma. Naalala nga namin yung lumang bahay ng lola ko sa tuhod sa Rizal, Laguna. Winner sa ambiance ang place.

Nag-eat all you can kami. Kakaiba kasi di buffet. Inihain nila yung food sa table namin. Sobrang sarap!

Appetizers ang garden salad na may
singkamas, carrots, lettuce, kamatis, etc

at lumpiang gulay na ang sarap pati vinegar na sawsawan!

Ulam namin ay pork binagoongan na
sobrang tender ng meat at di maalat.

The binagoongan was served with green mango salad.

May water buffalo salpicao din na ubod ng anghang.
Ang daming bawang!

May chicken curry din na although di gaya ng curry sa New Bombay,
(pinoy style curry kasi), okay naman.

May sinerve din na mariscos na lasang Ligo sardines na sinabawan. Hehe.
May pusit yan atsaka fish.

For dessert may ginatang ube, saba, kamoteng kahoy at langka.
Ang sarap din nito!

After kumain, nagpicture-picture kami sa paligid.

Bago tumayo ng table, nagpakuha muna kami ni B habang nakadungaw sa capiz windows.

Alala ko summer vacations ko noon sa bahay ng lola ko sa Rosario, Batangas. =)

Ito yung loob ng restaurant. Para talaga siyang bahay.
Nakakantok nga daw sabi ni B. =)

Yan ang kapatid kong si Lia at boyfriend niya, si Carsten.

Labas ng bahay, sa smoking area.

Kamukha ko ba? Hehe.

May aviary din dun sa garden sa labas.
Isa 'to sa mga pinakamakulay.

Nasa compound din ng Tesoro compound ang Pillar Plants and Novelties. Isa itong antique shop.

Ito kami ni B sa may side gate.
Puro kalawang na yang gate pero may kakaibang ganda siya.

Kuha sa taas ng shop. Siempre, pinakialaman ko yung tindang payong.
Hehe. 200 pesos yan.

Sa 2nd floor pa rin nung shop. Ang laki ng bintana
kaya medyo mahangin. Mainit pa rin though.

Ilan ito sa Pua-something collection ng Lucbanin artist.
Sorry, nalimutan ko name.

Kung gusto niyong pumasyal sa Kusina Salud, itext niyo ang fax number niyo sa 0921-7726985 at humingi kayo ng map. Pwede rin kayo tumawag sa (02) 6995036. Ayos dito dalhin ang mga balikbayan friends and relatives. Maappreciate nila yung place at yung authentic pinoy food.

the weekend in pictures, part 1

Ang birthday ni Jec

Jerico celebrated his birthday last Friday at Chaquico's bar. There was a live band, QP8, who played medyo old but good music. May mga kamukha pa ang mga band members na officemates namin at artista, gaya ni Hero Angeles! Haha.

Ang saya-saya ng party ni Jec! Nabangag kami sa tequila shots at sa San Mig Light, nahilo kakasayaw at nabusog sa kakakain! Winner!

Group pic!

Impromptu song number namin ni Seling for Jec.
Di ako ready, may dala akong chords ng Head Over Feet. :)

Pati camera bangag?

Jec and Allen

The celebrant performing with the band

EETA babies Tracy and Rhea having a blast


Hataw si Selena at TJ sa dancefloor!

B and me, hilo na!

dearest mommy and daddy

Happy silver wedding anniversary!

Aside from being great, wonderful and cool parents, I admire the two of you for being able to stay together for 25 years. I know your relationship isn't perfect and although you've managed to leave your kids out of it, I know you've gone through some rough times.

After 25 years, I'm happy that you still share kilig moments, tabi pa rin kayo matulog, nagiinarte na parang magboyfriend-girlfriend pa lang, nagkikilitian, nagkukurutan, naghaharutan, pasimpleng nagbabastusan (malalaki na anak niyo, naiintindihan na namin yan), nagkikiss pag bagong dating ng bahay, naghoholding hands.

In short, kahit dalwampu't limang taon na kayong nagsasama, masayang couple pa rin kayo and it really means so much to us to see that our parents love each other and that they're happy together. That's one major reason we grew up happy and angst-free. Aside from that, we grew up believing in love.

Thank you for sticking together and for loving each other. Even if we never say it, we appreciate you not only as parents but also as a couple, as lovers. Although may ewwww factor pag iniisip namin yun, we'd like to let you know that deep inside, we're happy that you're the PDA-type-harutan-lambingan type of couple. Seeing you like that makes us feel secure and gives us assurance that everything will be okay.

Hindi lahat ng bata blessed na magkaron ng parents na gaya niyo. And I thank God that our family's our family.

I love you both.

Love,
Trina

my movie star double

A space cadet (in the nicest sense of the word) like you needs to be played by someone who has her own rosy outlook on life, someone who is completely loyal, someone who is unbelievably endearing, someone like Reese Witherspoon.

Whether she's lighting up the stage as the dreamy darling in The Importance of Being Earnest, or pushing passed her blonde image in Legally Blonde, Reese's perfect for the part of someone who's seemingly clueless at times, but oddly intuitive when it matters most (even if we know that in real life she's a clever cookie).

Maybe you sometimes get preoccupied when people are talking around you, but who cares if you jump back into the conversation with a slightly bizarre comment or two? It just means your mind has been wandering in interesting places. You, like Reese in her leading lady roles, probably prefer to dedicate your full attention into the things that give you the most joy: your friends, your family, or a cause you're dedicated to. But ultimately, that's part of what attracts people to you and why they love having your good heart and supersensitive brain around. And that's also why Reese Witherspoon would be a box-office hit in the movie of your life.

From Tickle

relationship insight

No one can really be sure of how a relationship will turn out. A couple can be so together and giddy with happiness one second and somber and separated the next.

The uncertainty of it is just scary and sometimes you wish you could control everything.

But then you couldn't. And shouldn't.

You just have to do your best.

ang saya!

This is going to be a travel-filled year. After last month's Boracay trip, I am now looking forward to my week-long business trip to Shenzhen and Hong Kong in April. After that, B and I will go to Mactan Island in Cebu in May and come September, we will be going back to Boracay!

Ang saya-saya!

Thank God for Mabuhay Miles and Cebu Pacific's 10-peso fares!

******

I want to get formal lessons on drum-playing. So, I called Yamaha and was shocked to hear that 24, 1-hour sessions cost P13,000! Eh halos dalwang sem na ng MA yun sa UP eh. Tsaka para kang nagbayad ng P13,000 para matuto tumugtog ng drums in 24 hours, which is a day, di ba? Grabe. *faints*

Kung may alam kayo na mura lang dito sa Makati, sabihan niyo ko, please. I already know basic drum-playing but I seriously want to learn. Baka nasa music ang career ko.

Hehehehehehe. Joke. Di ako musikera. Feeling lang.

Tsaka, gusto ko lang talagang mang-umbag. Eh imbis na tao, drum set na lang. =)

******

Hay, ang saya ng life! Lalo na ngayon dahil kasama ko na siya:









Yihee! =)

Happy weekend everyone!

meet the parents, aunts, uncles, cousins, etc.

More than just frolic in the beach, I did something else in Boracay--mingle with B's family.

Perhaps meeting your significant other's family is one of the scariest things you have to endure in your entire life. Siempre, you don't know what they'll think of you tapos you're unsure pa of how you'll act around them. Mahirap manimpla eh.

Fortunately for me, everything turned out well.

I'm quite surprised with myself dahil hindi naman ako inherently machicka and I don't easily warm up to people. Pero siguro dahil machicka and warm ang family ni B, naging warm at machicka din ako sa kanila. It was easy to get comfortable and let your guard down with them.

As proof na successful ang immersion ko, B's cousins invited me to go to Calapan in the summer so we can all go to Galera and this other island, the name of which escapes me now.

That's a major accomplishment because I'm really shy. Madalas pa people think I'm suplada. I'm happy that I got over one major "hurdle."

Siguro when the person's right for you talaga, everything just falls into place. =)

the anthem of my restlessness

Spoliarium

dumilim ang paligid
may tumawag sa pangalan ko
labing isang palapag
tinanong kung okey lang ako
sabay abot ng baso
may naghihintay
at bakit ba pag nagsawa na ako
biglang ayoko na?

at ngayon
di pa rin alam
kung ba't tayo nandito
puwede bang itigil muna
ang pag-ikot ng mundo?

lumiwanag ang buwan
san juan
di ko na nasasakyan
ang lahat ng bagay ay
gumuguhit na lang
sa'king lalamunan
ewan ko at ewan natin
sinong may pakana
at bakit ba
tumilapon ang
gintong alak diyan sa paligid mo?

at ngayon
di pa rin alam
kung ba't tayo nandito
puwede bang itigil muna
ang pag-ikot ng mundo?

umiyak ang umaga
anong sinulat ni enteng at joey diyan
sa pintong salamin
di ko na mabasa
pagkat merong nagbura
ewan ko at ewan natin
sinong nagpakana?
at bakit ba tumilapon ang spoliarium
diyan sa paligid mo?

at ngayon
di pa rin alam
kung ba't tayo nandito
puwede bang itigil muna
ang pag-ikot ng mundo

marso uno

It's the first day of March.

Grabe how time flies so quickly. It feels like we're just slipping through every month and the next thing you know, this year's over.

******

I admire people who have the maturity and the endurance to do the same thing everyday. May mga tao kasing sobrang stable, yung hindi naapektuhan ng moods. Or siguro akala ko lang yun?

I have workmates who sit in front of their PCs everyday and just go about their work. Nakaplug ang earphones tapos sulat, sulat, sulat. Samantalang here I am, who every now and then, nakakafeel ng restlessness at hindi makapagsulat pag wala sa mood. Sometimes I can't tell if I'm just being lazy and unprofessional or if I'm letting myself be driven too much by my passions.

I'm a passionate person and I need to always feel things. I'm rational naman but I always make it a point to listen to my heart. Kaya siguro unless makita ko na yung job that I am passionate about , I won't be able to stay at a workplace for so long.

******

The weather's been really fine these past few days. The skies are clear and the sun's shining in all its majesty. Days like these ought to be spent outdoors. In Boracay, perhaps.

Haaay. I miss the beach.